Monday, November 28, 2005
maple has been down for (supposedly) 23 hours. haha. i heard that they didn't shut the server down till 3+am. anyways, i think i have to study more and play less.
hmm. nothing much has been going on in my life. my parents are kinda caught up in their lifes so they come back quite late at night. not that i take much notice cos i'll be in the room myself. in the past, i used to visit my mum in my parents' room almost every night to talk about stuff or watch tv until like 2am. but then now, it seems as though my mum's too tired for anythin. the moment she gets home, she gets ready for bed. as in SLEEP. what were u thinkin u nut. or rather what was i thinking. lol. whatever. the point is that i think people get older as time goes by, it's inevitable. it's scary to even think about what would happen in the future. when our parents aren't around anymore. that's why we have to cherish the present. if only my brother would understand and not be so.. ignorant? is that the word? i dunno. i wish he would pay more attention to them and make them happier. my parents worry about him all the time, in fact i do as well. his life's like a moving ship without direction. hopefully he has something planned out for himself. ahh well.
i'm squashing but i dun think that i'm gettin any thinner. what's wrong with me? haha. siannn!
it's after the promos but..
1. i havent met up with the girls, socks steph and fung.
2. no class (S205) gathering. *and i kinda doubt that it would happen.
3. no archangels gathering.
4. no PAE o5S1o gathering.
5. no shopping spree with wanqi. (damn. i've gotta dig out gold for a source of income enough to support my expenditure.)
6. homework not touched yet. =x
7. haven't crashed TP. hahha.
8. dunno if i should dye hair. most prob not.
it's after promos and..
1. i've got tons of work to do.
2. i'm playing squash and training hard. (visited gym once for 10 mins. HARDWORKING EH. =D)
3. i'm going to china from 6-13th dec.
4. i'm going to malaysia from 17-20 dec for my cousin's wedding dinner.
5. i got a wedding dinner to attend in Singapore on the 31st.
6. OGL proposals to be submitted. (deadlines differ for each proposal.)
7. ryan buddy asked me out on the 5th, monday!!! (and i'm leaving town on the 5th night, 6th morning at 1.15am. =D)
8. meeting jas to watch HP on the 2nd, friday!!
9. my brother's still a retard. =p
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:00 PM
11:00 PM
Sunday, November 27, 2005
okay. i've just lost 15% of exp cos i died 3 times at cargo and macis area. ya. jasmine.. u left me there den i died. haha no la. it's my fault but it's true that i died after u logged out. =x
zz. so siannnnnnn. 75% drop to 60% now. maybe i don't have the mood to play since i've been desperately tryin to find a geta. maple has a few million people playing and after 3 whole days of sourcing for a geta, i still don't get one. -_____-" siann laaaaaaaaaaaa.
this holidays.. weird.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 1:53 AM
1:53 AM
Thursday, November 24, 2005
I've got a burning desire.
I've got to do something about it!
Something i should have done earlier.
Something i shouldn't have delayed any longer.
Argh. Should i ask or should i not.
I wanna ask but i'm afraid.
Afraid of what?
I got no time for such stuff.
I'm a rather busy person.
But it'll bring me happiness.
Yupp. I should do something. And i will.
Okay.
I'll do it! I'm gonna ask!
Ask what.
hahahahha. ask my daddy whether i can take tennis lessons la!!!!!!!!!! =D
what were u thinkin? heh heh. did i get u fooled? hahhah. ok la.
i AM serious about it. yes. tmr i shall go DO solmething. wahhaa.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:08 PM
11:08 PM
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
today i went to sentosa for the ARS. Amazing Race Sentosa.
haha. the weather was BAD. damnit. it kept on rainin and rainin and rainin..........
and imagine being stuck in a hut from 8+ to about 2+. with no supplies or any resources or activities to indulge urself in. luckily i had yee teng with me. but well, her hp was more important to her. =p!!
the other days.. nothing much la. went out with rach jas that gang again. and we're gonna catch harry potter one of these days.
as for tmr, there's squash day camp. =D
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:12 PM
7:12 PM
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
i jus got
sunburnt. err i meant tanned.
haha. today i played squash with yeeteng after exposing myself to the sun.
argh. i still can't take back serves. damn. i have to learnnnn!!! and i think i'm not as good as before. =( have to ask jeff, yongping and longhui (the tpjc squashers) to whack me into shape again. lols.
i wanna dye my hair! though i'm not supposed to cos of the whole OGL thingy. let's see about it. gonna crash TP soon! =)
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:04 PM
10:04 PM
Currently quite busy with the MMM games proposal which is to be done by 3pm today.
The W&W proposal has already been submitted in yesterday.
Yesterday we got an ass whooping at ajc's friendly at aj.
All of us lost la. Haha. Some lost all 2 best of 3. some managed to win 1 of of 3 but still lose. Argh! I think it's cos their service is good. *sulks. And that we got lots of trainin to do. Our training has been quite irregular and one of our squash courts has not been in use for quite long cos the door jammed. I really hope that the PE dept would quickly look into the matter as we need those squash courts to be in use to facilitate trainin. =( it sucks to be in fear of having friendlies with other schools and getting our ass kicked. there's no way we can play with jj anytime soon.
After that, i had dinner with rachel and jasmine. hahas. Jas! Take care okays. (: We're always here for youuu. And thanks for the rocky road treat. <3
We went over the Rach's and watched tv! ahahs. Yesterday's episode of The Rainbow Connection was pretty boring. =p Waiting for more action in today's episode!
I'll probably start my homework tomorrow after OGL meeting. =x
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:02 AM
11:02 AM
Monday, November 14, 2005
i think everythin's not going well for me.
this is very wrong. heck, i haven't even done I&R yet!
and we have to send in the games by tmr morning 9am. and i have to contact the squash girls on tmr's friendly with ajc. damnit. it's like no one's interested. either they have other commitments or they just dun wanna go. i can understand how they feel. cos to them squash is kinda like a secondary commitment anyway rite. i fully understand.. i'm not being sarcastic. ahh crap. what a badddd time for a friendly to be held.
if u have a problem with that or anything that i'm gonna say along those lines, please close this page or go hide in a corner. i don't wanna hear any shit right now. =(
anyways, i got placed as a game i/c (with a part time role as an OGL) in.. reggie. yea. socks is probably gonna go hysterical but hehe. =D hmm. i still miss the good old zosma days. well, life's like that. we gotta move on but i would very much like to bitch about the removal of zosma. zz. hais. most of the zosmanians have been allocated to alhena. at least thats how i feel. great.. live the spirit. somehow i feel that there's somethin lacking in all of this. u can't blame me for feeling lousy..
as for the OGL camp, i'm very very sorry. i know *** must be damn angry at me. he must be feeling so stressed rite now. i'm sry for having to contribute to part of ur stress. though it's like a small bit. u're pressurizing me. i hate that. i dunno what to say but profusely apologise. i dun even know how to explain to my housemates, much less the council. i promise i'll try to learn everything asap despite being MIA. argh. darnn. i hate myself for being sore about alot of stuff. i wish i could help it but i think i can't.. imagine being at MMM at sentosa with chunwai. and btw it happened to
ME. not happened. is going to happen. (prays hard that pangker would be able to make a switch.) that was the start of the downturn of my mood today. before that to be brutally honest, i was surprised i was put into regulus. not very pleasant. i'm so sorry. and not only that, not put in OGL. haha. i wanted to be, cos can mix around with freshies mah. i was damnn bitter can. argh. ffccuuukkk. besides, even KBL's put as an OGL! there must be some screw up with the allocation of people. but then, all's for the good of the orientation. fuck it, there's just too many major siansations for me.
seriously, i'm not daring enough to split out all my opinions and vent all my frustrations here cos i know if some random passerby sees this he'll prob think i'm nuts or if some mjc student sees this that person will think that i'm unreasonable. perhaps i'll straighten out my thinking after writing this stupid post. i still have my yeeteng in regulus! not to mention she'll be with me durin MMM @ sentosa, W&W and squash camp. >.<
thanks mj councillors for putting in so much effort to make this orientation a success. (:
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:02 PM
10:02 PM
Sunday, November 13, 2005
after reading
val's blog, i realised that i actually have homework to do!
let me recall. GP essay outlines, chem worksheets, biology lectures and tutorials and econs? someone please tell me there isn't economics homework. T.T
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:13 PM
9:13 PM
i just came back from van's place. she held a party tonight.
it was darn fun playing mahjong all night! haha. wanted to play all night but we all had to return home so too bad. aha. van brought me alot of luck while she was there! not the hostress. the other van from A106. yup! i won 4 consecutive rounds and after she left i stopped winning. :( haha.
anyways, i met a few of people from there. like her plmgss friends and some art faculty people. it's just that i rarely get to associate myself with the other faculty since i'm usually mixing around with science kias. the only sub i'm taking non science is economics. which isn't very arts either. =p~
we shall continue our mahjong session again, Archangels! or should i specifically say van, yijun the crazy girl, esther the tyco one, ruihong, daniel the one with most luck at the end of the session, myself with luck at the beginning and liting the one with least money. (due to yijun's leftover cash. =p~) whee!! this is fun. =D
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 12:32 AM
12:32 AM
Friday, November 11, 2005
OP is finally over and done with! *throws OP gotta the window.
first and foremost, i would like to thank my dear wanqi!!! thanks girl for lending me ur skirt, it helped me to convey a 'guai kia' first impression of myself to the judges! hahas. i'm sure that it benefited my OP examination. =)
hais. it's like.. kinda hard to find people out nowadays.. like my dear girls. steph has gotta take care of her marcus and wanqi has got her sis. it's not that i'm unhappy or what. can't deny that i'm just a little envious. =p it's only natural rite. haha. they have people to go out with, share their stuff with.
i'm not discontent with whatever i have. in fact, i think my brothers are nice la. however, they feel that going out for a movie is a waste of time and cash. =p and i don't think that they are crazy company. i'm used to more siao people around me. *ahem. steph. ahem. hahaa. kidding!
examinations are over. but i'm stranded here. hais. mummy.. can u bring me out. zz.
gonna be real busy with.. camps. camps and more camps. and a holiday. and OGL meetings.
maple is gettin boring. yes. i've finally seen the light. (as my kor would say..) =D
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:44 PM
11:44 PM
my stupid mr cutie hammy virtual pet is so boring.
haha. maybe i'll disown it! muahahahhas.
not fun to play with one. i'll go get another pet. hee.
anyways, i'm going to school now for my dreadful actual OP. i hate Q&A. zz.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:40 AM
9:40 AM
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
my brother sucks like fuck!
i dunno how i can actually live with such a person at home. damn it la. argh!!! i'm so frustrated!
u all won't even understand cos u've never experienced such a person before! abnormal shyt. kinda reminds me of our bio teacher. freaking hell. supposed to be searching for a printer cos the lousy one at home cannot work anymore. like what do I know about printers ? anyway that smart ass suggested searching on the net NOT me since i know i can't search for nuts, and what can pictures do ? they can't even talk to u. how am i supposed to know its good. at least in shops the salesperson can recommend certain brands right. stupid shyt. next time i'm not gonna agree for convenience sake cos it gets nowhere! instead, cos UR brother wants some convenience and to get home earlier so he can chiong his game (and he does it 24-7) and comes up with this kooky idea, he then pushes everything to u because it so happens that U need it more than he, u'll end up having to do everything. the perfect devised method for lazy brats who want to game their life away.
but then he's not THAT bad at times. they get on ur nerves ocassionally. and the feeling is awful. it makes u feel all evil as mentioned above. darn it. how to find a printer. nevermind. time to source for alternatives. magazines here i come!
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:44 AM
9:44 AM
Monday, November 07, 2005
actually i think i'm a very lucky girl.
my parents are pretty lax on me. the only thing i'm rather unhappy about is the fact that my elder brother takes all these for granted. he's a bastard. (: okok la. i shan't say that about him. he's nice at times. selectively nice. hahas. i was eatin chips on my parents bed while watching stairway to heaven just now and my daddy saw me. but then he didn't say anything, in fact he flashed a smile at me. hahas. if i had strict parents (and i know of people who have), they'll get screamed at for 1. eating chips on their parents bed which could invite many ants and what-nots. 2.
merely watching a harmless korean serial.
lol. i'm quite bored of playing maple already. lv 52 bandit. it's an accomplishment for me if u didn't know, considering my work load and how tired i am after a whole day of activities. i wonder how i managed to play through the night till 5am these past few days. anyways, i'm not gonna sacrifice my sleep anymore. it isn't worth it!!! i'm one tired and worn out girl.
class outing tmr.. wanted to go ice skating but many opposed to the idea so we're gonna settle for lunch at seoul garden and a movie. sounds quite DUH. it's been some time since i went ice skating.. was lookin forward to it. haha. well, anythin's fine i guess, as long as we spend quality time together as a class! S205 forever! (:
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:03 PM
11:03 PM
Sunday, November 06, 2005
im listening to shen hu hai.. jay's cd. bought it on friday.
haha. makes me wanna do a duet with someone in future. that's sooooooo cool. =p~
anyways, these past few days i've have been going out with my family to do stuff. me and mum are getting ready for the china trip.. we've booked the trip already. 6th dec to 13th dec. haha. alot of stuff to do till then, this holiday is really packed with things to do. my mum told me to study hard durin this holiday. true.. haha. gotta catch up on alot of stuff.
tmr there's biology class in the morning for 3 hours round about. hais. most of our class people will be MIA cos they dropped bio already. i'll miss them.. it makes me wanna drop bio as well. it's not as if i can cope very well myself. i dunno. =(
to end off, i would like to wish my di all the best for his O levels. may he score well enough to come into mjc!!! haha. (and be tortured there. =x) no pain no gain people!!
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:35 PM
8:35 PM
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
tiredddd.
slept at 5am (when i slept that time the rooster was making its morning calls! noisyy..) woke up at 7am. then, rushed down to school to meet cherlyn at 7.20. (she was there at 6.50am!! sorry girl.. haha.) we meet SBM, did our oral presentations and had to make changes as usual. hahas. nothing much la. quite sian actually.
after that in the library we watch lolita and i am sam. both shows were terribly depressing. the first one was about this father who loved his daugher (not the NORMAL healthy relationship. somehow their relationship grew.) after which his wife died in a car accident. so he controlled the girl's life and watched over her.. in fact he was possessive of her. luckily, she managed to escape from his evil clutches and ran away with the help of someone.. she got married to another guy in the end and requested money from her stepfather. he was quite ke lian cos he was a lecturer.. someone of high status. she was his downfall because if she hadn't entered his life, he might have led a normal peaceful life. he was reduced to such a state because of her.. haha. i feel that he's an innocent party and that his daughter had led him on. so sad..
the second one is about this main lead, who had the intellect of merely a 7 year old, having to be a father of daughter with higher than normal intellect. in short, she was a smart girl. haha. anyway, to keep things short, they both overcomed whatever problems they face and were happy together. well, this is just a fictional story. perhaps in real life, this wouldn't have been a happy ending. imagine this scenerio. the girl has to be very strong-willed and filial. how many people can be like her.
okie. thanks guys for tagging! =D
saturday it's class outing day!!!!!!!! yay! hahaha. let's have some fun!
pw is
not driving me crazy.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:33 PM
9:33 PM
think pw. think op.
i think it's quite catchy! (:
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 12:21 AM
12:21 AM
